Tonight...

I wrote this one night last week..and after going back and re-reading it, I thought it was worth sharing.

Tonight it was all about the little things.  Tonight I truly felt this sense of peace. 

Backing up....I'll start at the beginning.  I had a particularly difficult day.  I've mentioned in the past that we've struggled through some difficult times with Jer's father Mike before.  And it's as true now as it was months ago when I mentioned it then.  On top of life's normal everyday things...it's been an interesting few months for us. A bit of a balancing act. It's been emotional and difficult and I've struggled with selfishness again and again.  I've also learned a lot.  I've learned some (most) days what I have planned will change. What I think is happening isn't. And honestly...everything I know at 8am, could be different by 5pm....or even 9am for that matter.  But...this isn't about that. It's about tonight.

Tonight...though...I came home from work, got to kiss my husband before he left again to fulfill another evening of commitments. I had dreaded not getting to see him that evening...all day long...so seeing him was a bonus!  I listened to him sing Owen a song about something silly.  I met my best friend and just seeing her face gave me a sense of calm.  We shopped for nothing, talked about everything, bought Owen a cookie and I think we lapped the mall 8 times before calling it quits.  I saw a sign for Glee and remembered it came out on DVD...which meant I HAD to buy it.  So off we went to Target. Owen had some chicken nuggets and chocolate milk...and I bought Glee.  I reluctantly returned her to her car and let her leave me...though I thought about saying...let's have a slumber party!!  When I got home, Owen and I watched a crazy episode of Wonder Pets.  We read his Baby Colors book...his book of prayers and cruised through his word book before turning out the light...singing our favorite Laurie Berkner songs and putting him in his crib. Safe, sleepy and happy.  I then sat down with cheese stuffed ravioli...smothered in delicious red sauce and roped provel cheese and two...yes two...slices of my favorite cheese garlic bread.  I washed it down with a glass of milk...though wine might have been a good choice had we had any in the fridge.  I sat down with my delicious meal for one.  A son snoozing soundly, the sounds of Glee filling our bedroom...wrapped up in my favorite down comforter and my brother's Memphis Redbirds t-shirt I stole (he's not getting it back) and felt complete contentment.  It a fabulous end to a long, emotionally tough day and I could not imagine a happier close to it.

Thank you God for the little things...and how sometimes when you least expect it...they come flying at you like a freight train!